Anyway, on another totally different matter. We still don’t have the exact date on when we are going back for good. Although most probably it will be in between middle of July because hubby will start working in Msia on 1st August. Thus, there’s not much progress at home. I haven’t started packing yet instead I have added a few more stuffs into the already cramped house 😛 There are a few more things I wished to get in order to bring home. But they are not really necessary so I don’t really mind actually. Furthermore lots of money required for our big transition process soon. Moving and bulding a new life from scratch is really a big thing. Honestly, we can’t wait to go back to Msia and keep counting the days. Maybe because we have fully accepted the fact and thus set our mind. So, I think it’s gonna be hard for us if suddenly we are told the date is going to be postponed. It’s really difficult to shift the mind. So, as much as we realized we gonna miss Japan but we think it’s already enough living our life in here.
Since the day we got the news, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. Such as where to live, what kind of house we like to buy (but not the soonest lah okay), what kind of second car that’s suitable for us, the money we have, the budgets for all the plans, ways to make money, about Ihsan’s well-being and a lot more! But one thing that surely the most mind boggling to me is whether I should work or not. Honestly, Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah because without I planned on it; somehow Allah has granted something that I’d dream a long time ago. I wished of marrying a rich guy and becoming a housewife. But of course I never thought of that seriously and it just came across my mind as one of my most impossible wish. I said impossible because surely I have set my mind I would be working once after I graduated from university and becoming a successful career woman. In fact I took quite some times to shift my mind and adapt myself into being a housewife, which was very difficult to do. But I realized I wouldn’t be happy if I continue working and living far away from my husband, and that eventually made me got through the phase.
So, without I realized it Allah has planned my life towards this path. I met a husband who’s studying and then working in Japan which eventually of course lead me to choose to be by my husband’s side. Only that my husband is yet a hartawan lah kan LOL 😀 So, since I’d already been living the life as a housewife for more than 5 years and then been given the chance to take care of my own child since the day he was born, I should realized already it has been one of my dreams come true! If I have to choose now, of course I wish I could stay being a stay at home mom (SAHM) because I don’t trust others could understand and take care of my own child better than me. My child well-being is my top priority and of course I enjoy being occupied with house chores, ensuring things at home are organized and taking care the well-being of my husband and etc. I feel satisfied for being able to do such things. Sometimes when I pause and reflect on my life, I really feel I’m so blessed for being given a chance as a SAHM. Although I’m not saying being a SAHM is the best profession to be and I’m not the perfect SAHM either. I always believe there’s always two sides of a coins. Same goes for being as SAHM there are pros and cons and I also have my own time of ups and downs. But at least to me, I’m glad to be one and I’m very happy with my life. I’m maybe not so bothered if I couldn’t stay being a housewife, but it really affected me if I couldn’t stay being a SAHM. So, noticed the difference already? Every mother wants to give the best to her child, including me. Only that maybe our ways of giving the best is different. I really love it being a SAHM. So, why bother working?
However… I realize it living in Msia is very expensive compared to Japan. Although after the conversion, price stuffs in Japan is about 3.7 times higher than Msia. But with the relative same amount of money in Msia we could get more of the same stuffs in Japan. Every month with the relative same amount of salary in Japan, at the end of the day we could still put half of the amount for saving. But when we went home to Msia, we could only save little and we couldn’t really see where our money had gone too. Sebabnya banyak habis untuk basic necessities je, so xnampak sangatlah apa barangnya. Belum lagi pergi jolly katak. Agaknya berapa sen je lah tinggal kalau xberpada2. So, having this thought kind of forced me thinking about working. I don’t dare to see the number our bank statement depleting so we have to find ways of keeping them increase. Furthermore, someday our family members might expand and nowadays raising even a child is already expensive. Because everything is getting expensive and everything needs money. Although money isn’t everything but it’s very important to have secured financial.
I’ve been thinking each kind of job like being a working at home mom (WAHM), being employed and work 8 to 5, doing a flexible business and etc. Each job has it’s own pros and cons. So, I ve been evaluating what are my priorities and which job suits me best and I would enjoy doing it. I prefer being with my child or at least have flexible working hours. I already have a few plans in mind and still gathering resources. I will start slowly after everything else is settled. Hubby’s new routine dah okay, Ihsan dah weaned-off, Ihsan dah boleh pergi nursery (merely the purpose is to let him socialize) and etc, then only I will slowly start doing what I’m planning to do. Actually I don’t have specific plan pun but I still hope everything will run smoothly and easy for me. So, getting a real job and being employed is the last option in the list. If I needed to opt for this, I hope I have the courage to be one. Bukanlah xyakin yang I mampu buat. Boleh je. Cuma I think I’ll be happier if I could at least continue as a WAHM. Well, we’ll see. I pray that Allah will lead towards the best way for me and hopefully things will run smoothly. And also I’ll keep praying someday my husband would be filthy rich LOL 😀 InsyaAllah… Eh free je berdoa pun bukannya kena bayar. Xsalah pun berangan kan. Mana lah tau Allah lorongkan jalan untuk kita berusaha ke arah tu 🙂