Honestly at first we were rather shocked and a bit upset to accept the news. Although we already knew all the details about going back for good but we didn’t expect that we have to proceed with the plan not at the time we wished. That’s what what made us feel quite hesitated since we still have a few targets to achieve and there are a few holding-back reasons. Which they could be realized if we delay the date until early spring next year. So, we feel as if we are forced to go back although actually nobody is forcing anybody. However, accepting the news is somehow it feels like the correct thing to do. Truly, we feel mixed inside, so it isn’t totally the feel of disagreement that we have. Deep inside we feel quite relieve for we are finally going back for good and we are going to start settling down soon! There are still lots of goodness that we can never find in Nihon except in Msia itself.
Settling down in Msia means 1. we can start our firm life root in Msia and preparing for the future days, 2. we can spend more times with families especially realizing that our parents are getting older each day so it’s good to be nearer to them, 3. more suitable environment to expand the family and as well as children development, 4. Msia offers more life to us since everything is so familiar, 5. it’s very comforting and relieving to know that during our ups and downs we are no longer alone, 6. Msia is Islamic country which is very important to us, 7. many more to list down and etc. Although at the same time we feel so heavy to leave Nihon since especially we are so used with life and culture in Nihon. Everything is so comforting and we feel so secure living in Nihon. There are many things that we will surely miss because there are things that we can never get in Msia. Yet, we still have to go back to where we belong to and live with the flaws. Although Nihon itself is also imperfect, I know some people might not bother going back to Msia ever. But it depends on what are the top priorities you put in your life. And everyone has different priorities.
I have waited 2 weeks to come to the term and fully accept the fact that we are going back to Msia. In within past 2 weeks I stayed up late and only sleep after Subuh prayer. Thinking about so many things that we will gonna miss soon as well as the new things we have to face in the near future. Nihon is very meaningful to us and has somehow set a place deep in our hearts. Yet, I’m gonna reserve that in another entry. Anyway, recently we started to think about so many things regarding to settling down like house, car, job, money, money, money and lots of other stuffs. So being me, I hate to be clueless so as usual I started gathering so many information regarding everything. Now I feel myself at ease for at least I have armed myself with necessary information. Life in Msia isn’t the same as our life in Nihon and there will be a lot of uncertainties. In order for us to complete our life one by one we need the knowledge to run the strategy.
By the way, Alhamdulillah we are grateful for the path that has been set upon us. Although it was kinda a bit so, but we didn’t actually mean to be ungrateful or trying to disagree with our fate. It was just that we are shocked. We already knew the plan except the time wasn’t as we hoped, that’s all. Honestly, our life ahead going to turn 180 degree from now. So many things will change. I don’t think hubby is going to bother much about it. But for me, it’s going to be big and I’m nervous with the days ahead. I just hope everything will run easy and smooth for us and at the end of the day we going to be smiling, feeling blessed, InsyaAllah. That’s why I said earlier it was kind of mixed of emotion when it come to this news. As well as we could shout ‘Yay!’ but at the same time there is ‘Yikes!’ coming out. So maybe I should shout ‘Yayikes!’ instead? 😛 So, that’s it.
And no I’m not pregnant yet if that’s you earlier guess 😛 In fact we are still on family planning 🙂 If it happened that the entry was actually meant of me being pregnant, it wouldn’t go that way. The entry definitely would be asking everyone to lompat-bintang with me 😀