Truly, the past previously days had been quite depressing, unmotivated, worrying days for me. I have no mood in doing anything and kept procrastinating stuffs. But some things still need to run so I have no way to ignore them. But I worked on them quite slowly. Ihsan was on high fever 2 times in 2 consecutive weeks. And I don’t know, there are a few issues with this little boy which a few times he drove me up the wall. He turned me into Banshee! Of course that was upsetting and stressful for me. But he is slowing down and perhaps I can resolve things with him one by one. Maybe it’s the Terrible 2 symptoms? Uh-oh! 😛 And not forgetting the other factor which I guess most of you already knew why. Yes, the massive earthquake and terrible tsunami and now the still unsettled nuclear leakage. The significant 11th March 2011, Friday was indeed an adrenaline rush, surreal, sad, heart-wrenching and it’s beyond words for me. Speechless. Until today I’m still haunted by the shaking feeling and I keep looking at my hanging lamp to see whether it’s swaying or not. Sometimes it’s really the small shaking but half of the time is only my feelings. This is so not good mentally and emotionally.
Anyway, Alhamdulillah we are safe from any danger. What we experienced was only the pieces of the natural disaster. My heart goes out to all those who affected. I had been watching TV non-stopped for the first 2 weeks and I got to see although a few of them were miraculously a happy ones but most of them are heartrending stories. Somehow I’m not regret wathcing TV because I learned magic values from the victims. I should say I’m impressed and moved. But too much exposure to the aftermath isn’t good either. So, enough of too much TV. Now I’m just trying to limit myself updated with the nuclear reactor issue so that we could take preventive steps in our daily life. Sigh… that’s another thing. I know it’s never easy but I keep praying for some miracle to happen and it will settle fast. Even though the we are quite distant from the nuclear plant and the nuclear substance detected very low. But I’d rather choose not to take any chances at all if I could. Especially when we have a little child with us.
In the meantime, I’m praying for everything to get better as per normal. And it’s entering a new year according to Japanese calendar come this April. Perhaps I’ll be highly motivated enough to endure coming days and get to work on my resolutions. Yosh gambare watashi! (I know hubby is surely laughing or at least smiling when he reads this. Tak suka tau! :P).