My pregnancy with Ihsan had been quite an easy one. Although while carrying him, I constantly felt pressured but I was quite calm, focused, prepared and highly spirited almost all the times. Alhamdulillah the delivery process was much easier and surely we came home from the hospital smiling during this time. I must say that it was one among the most precious moments for me to experience. I still can remember the journey of bringing Ihsan home was all so familiar because I actually did experience that beforehand. The time, the weather, the traffic and all was quite similar. Except surely it was fated to be the other way round. This time I could put my baby in the infant car seat where he slept so soundly in it until we reached home. Throughout the journey I could see his peaceful face. I could hold his tiny fingers. I could touch his warm delicate skin and feel his chest going up and down. I smiled all the way back home. There was mixed of emotions in me. Yet I felt so blissful and relieved. Although I’m sure aware this time we were brought to put more definitions into our own parenthood dictionary. It was indeed felt like in a dream 🙂
Alhamdulillah for the past 1 year Ihsan has been quite an easy baby. It wasn’t hard taking care of Ihsan. No major thing took place, as far as I can remember. Although of course there were challenges like some episodes of worrying when he got sick, all hells breaking loose when he really tested my patience so on and so forth. But all I could say is everything went on as smoothly and very ordinarily. I think , that’s because we had been quite ordinary parents and child ourselves too. Although I do aware there were some flaws at here and there but I believed and in fact I’m proud that we have tried our best in bringing him up since the first day he was born. There are new things we discovered everyday and being with him made us learned a lot. The past one year has been amazing and we are expecting more happy surprises to come in coming years! 😀
Now let me recap back on Ihsan’s birthday. Months before his birthday and even until the actual day itself, I couldn’t stop re-thinking and re-planning how to celebrate his birthday. I thought of getting party hats for each of us and blow some balloons but at last we decided just to celebrate his birthday in a very simple way. There was only a birthday cake followed by cake cutting session! I put a new shirt on him which actually meant to be worn during raya later during the cake cutting session. We kept singing and wishing him happy birthday constantly too. On the night before his birthday I baked a carrot cake for him. At first I thought of making a sponge cake layered with cream but I changed my mind during the last minute. Because I thought of making a more special cake than a normal one. Furthermore I just made the former kind of cake during hubby’s birthday last month.
Earlier on the day of his birthday we woke up late and he was the one who woke up first. We slept late on the night before. Well, obviously I was busy preparing for his birthday cake. Anyway after awakened by him, we sang the birthday song for him in bed. He was as cheerful as a lark. I always find him the cutest when he just woke up in the morning after sufficient peaceful sleep. I like his smell at that time minus the stinky and loaded diaper of course, his refreshed look, his wide eyes and his smelly mouth. Well, he just smiled listening to us singing the birthday song. Not that he understood what it was but of course because he was happy being entertained, as usual 😀 After that we made ourselves because we already planned to go out to Nishimatsuya to restock some of his stuffs. We just got out for a while and once reached home I directly cooked chicken rice. Furthermore because we were going to receive visitors on that day.
Only after breaking fast we held the cake cutting session. Truly, it was indeed a struggle to get his cooperation. He didn’t bother at all about the cake. All he wanted was just to watch his Baby Einstein videos. He made fuss when I stopped the videos and switched off the TV! We are the ones who were busy trying to capture the important moments. It was kinda funny because we are the ones who were overjoyed whilst the birthday boy couldn’t care less! After some hard works on taking proper pictures and videos which included lots of wriggling and a bit of crying in the middle, we managed to pass the birthday song singing and cake cutting. Phew! I gave him a taste of the cheese topping on the cake. He ate it with weird face. Since he didn’t spit it out so I’m sure he liked it. But that’s all! He didn’t care to eat more. I tried giving him some of the cakes a few times after that but up to this day he didn’t mind at all about the cake. He just ate a bit before crushing the rest with his palm and pressing the pieces on the carpet 🙂
For his birthday present, I managed to get him a new book on the past couple of weeks. The book is in Japanese and it’s about counting 10 caterpillars. I think the book is very interesting because besides it is colorfully illustrated, they are actually 10 appeared caterpillars in the book and the last page got pop-up too. Honestly in my mind there is list of stuffs that could be a great birthday present for Ihsan but later I thought, I should make book as compulsory birthday present every year! Furthermore we still can get the other things during other times. By the way I wished to get Ihsan a potty training set, a push car, educational CDs and etc later. Papa, please take note 😀 Owh by the way, Ihsan also got advanced birthday present of jinbei which he wore during hanabi matsuri previously if you noticed. It is actually from our friend in Hiroshima. Thank you Kak Sophea, Sarah-chan and Mahdi-kun. Also after celebrating Ihsan’s birthday, we got visitors from Shizuoka, Uncle Neko, Auntie Ida and Nabilah-chan. They brought shape sorter set for Ihsan. Thank you too! Now, we both are planning to celebrate Ihsan’s birth once again coming soon in Msia with the families, InsyaAllah.
Anyway I always feel that Ihsan’s presence has brought up our hope once again. He brings a lot of smiles into our lives. Although definitely he never can be the replacement to his late elder brother. But at least he has helped us ease our missing towards ‘Abid. I’m grateful for the blessings of both sons towards me. I love them both dearly. And if it hasn’t been fated to be this way, I might not have a baby angel waiting for me in Jannah and a cheeky fast growing baby that never fails to fascinate me every day both at the same time! Alhamdulillah Ya Allah… for You know what’s best for us and Your plan surely is the best always 🙂 In my prayers every day I never stopped praying for my sons. And for Ihsan, I pray that he will grow up being a good person to himself, his siblings, families, friends and society. May Ihsan be a Soleh son who will never forget praying for us always and as a good caliph to Allah. May Ihsan will always succeed in whatever good deed he is working on during his life and blessed until the hereafter. Only all the best wishes to my Ihsan. InsyaAllah. Amin. Happy very 1st birthday baby! 😀
“It has only been 1 year. We are sure looking forward for more years to come being with you. Celebrating more birthdays with you and surely there will be more adventures coming along the way in between too. May Allah lend you to us a long as He can. And may Mama and Papa could breath as long as at least until we could see you grow up being a faithful Muslim who is succeed in life and perhaps until the hereafter. For that, may we are always being under His blessings and guidance all the time in nurturing you to be one. InsyaAllah. Amin. The journey we had to go through wasn’t easy until the day we got you. For that, we really cherish and grateful for your presence into our lives. Mama Papa loves you whole-heartedly more than words can say.”