Then at about 9.30 am I realized that he came to me asking for milk. So I pulled him towards my side. Just when I thought he finally would want to join me, my hand touched something wet and cold on my pillow. I turned my head and I thought what the heck is that yellow thing on my pillow??? I instantly thought Ihsan vomited in bed but I thought something wasn’t right with the vomit. Then only I realized it was Ihsan’s poop! I immediately sit up and saw poop on Ihsan’s back and some traces of the pie at here and there in the bed. I felt like crying there and then! Of all days why must it happened when hubby wasn’t around?! I was not in the mood remember? I went into bed very late on the night before and today when it was still morning my day had already been spoiled. I felt hopeless! Yet I knew somehow I should settle the little fella, myself, the poop and everything in the bed. Urghhh! I braced myself!
So I brought Ihsan to the bathroom. We took bath. Then I took off all the covers in bed and got them clean. The tough part of course to drag the heavy mattress into the bathroom. I only cleaned up the part that got dirty. Finally I hanged everything outside to dry. Of all the days, luckily today was quite sunny. Indeed, I still had Allah’s mercy. Alhamdulillah. Actually Ihsan didn’t poop that much pun. But since he couldn’t stay put, his diaper londeh sikit. I noticed that he might has slipped at the edge of the bed so that’s why his poop spilled out at the back.
I felt vulnerable and irritated today. I’m not sure what’s the cause that made me feeling that way but I do realized the cause that triggered me to being unhappy. It’s actually nothing pun. But biasalah. No need to tell the details here karang ada yg cakap laa itu je ke? 😛 Eh suka hati aku lah! Eh tetiba 😛 Despite of already being moody, I had hard time feeding on Ihsan. Actually again it’s nothing pun but the mood somehow made my patience also running low too. Susah betul nk bg dia mkn. If I secured him on his chair he would struggle and don’t want to eat at all. So I let him go free. But he couldn’t stay put in one place and it was so annoying having had to follow him and at the same time cajole him to open his mouth urghhh!
To add more, the whole day he kept climbing the PC table and seriously I already lost count of how many times I needed to take him down in order to save the PC from being damaged. I blocked the table and etc with stuffs but he still tried to climb on them. If xdpt meja PC he climbed on other things plak. Penat! Honestly there was slight thought deep in me hoping him to fall down hard. Gee, nauzubillah! Of course I didn’t wish that to happen though. Kena beli laptop much sooner la agaknya kot? Other than that, today he bit me twice on my arms. Sakit! 🙁 Then during in the kitchen he was so determined to terkam on kain lap kaki under the sink which is obviously terribly dirty. God knows what’s on the kain lah kan. He played with the segregated sampah and tried to eat them. He played with onions and ate the skin that I needed to stop doing the dishes and dug his mouth. Nasi xnk mkn tp benda tah apa2 suka plak dia nk mkn. Xpaham betul!
At the end of the day I already felt emotionally drained out. Especially after constantly yelling at Ihsan and having had to do and say the same thing on him. I hit Ihsan’s legs and arms and bit him too. Tapi dia gelak je ahaha! Kalau nangis pun sket je. Mama plak yg rasa nk nangis tgk kamu! Yelahkan Mama buat xsakit pun. But do you know Ihsan, Mama geram sgt2 dgn Ihsan! Fortunately we did sleep together during the afternoon so at least I could give my soul some rest. Hubby got home at about 8.00 pm. He bought me a nice pink watch. No, it’s not an expensive one pun. He bought 2 watches for himself and 1 for me. Each harga 1000 Yen je hihi 😉 But since I was not in good mood my reaction didn’t do fair to his kind thought towards me. Sorry Yang. But I like the watch, though. Thanks ye. I love you, mmmuahhh! 🙂
Yesterday was raining for the whole day. Xbest betul weekend ni sbb mood xokay. By the way, honestly Ihsan had been the victim to my moodiness today hihi 😛 Siannn baby Mama. But gladly I didn’t go with my emotion that might lead me to do something I would regret. You know Yang, I couldn’t really say what was actually went wrong. But my life is very mundane. And the norm could be killing you know. So when things don’t go according how I wished them to be, I will easily feel sad and depressed. Sometimes I wished if only there would be a day just for myself without having to worry at all about anyone else except about myself and doing whatever I wished to do. Yeah, keep on dreaming. Nite-nite!
PS- Is watching National Geographic on the TV at the same time. It’s showing about monkey. Just now there’s a sick baby monkey slowly dying because of disease. So heart-wrenching looking at him! When he already died the mom still picked him up and carried him around. How loving is that and how sadddddddddd!!!!! Yet there’s people dumping babies everywhere like garbage. How evil is that?????!!!!! Ihsan Mama loves you so much! (Although you always drives me nuts).