Ihsan turned 2 months young yesterday, October 21st, 2009. Alhamdulillah until today he is growing as a healthy and happy baby 🙂 I weighted him and took measurement of his height yesterday myself. As of now he is already 4.5 kg of weight and 56 cm of height. This month he is growing not as rapidly as during the first month. I can see that he drinks milk less compared to during the first month. In fact, these days he doesn’t really concentrate and tends to play while drinking milk unless when he is really hungry. But of course he is growing normally as he should. Obviously he was having growth spurt during the first month. But even nowadays he is already quite heavy for me to hold in a long time. I have to be in the right posture if I wanted to lift him up while sitting, not like before when I could lift him up as anyhow I wished. Anyway, Ihsan looks chubbier and bigger these days (well, of course! duh! :P). His body looks longer and I keep wondering that he used to be fit to stay in my womb before. That kinda give me an incredible feeling to see how much he has grown now. He also already has puffy fingers and feet. They look like dough that ready to be baked in the oven. Everytime I look at his fingers I would think of how tiny and skinny he used to be. I really miss the adorable mini fingers and palm. But these days I really love to hug him since he feels full in my arms and that kinda give me an indescribable contented feeling. His hair has grown longer to which his forehead has been covered back with fine hair and his sideburns are also becoming more obvious. So sometimes, I find that he looks more like when he was born. Even once in a while he shows the resemblance of his elder brother, ‘Abid. Sometimes when looking at Ihsan, I couldn’t help to imagine having his brother around.
To move on, I can see that Ihsan already recognized our faces. He loves to converse and play with us. He smiles and laughs a lot these days especially when provoked. When he is in a good mood especially after having enough sleep and full tummy, he could be placed to play with himself. Usually I would take that chance to do whatever I need to do in a jiffy before Ihsan starts to feel boring. I would first leave him with toys all around to make him occupied. But nowadays he usually ignores his toys and none toys seem can make him entertained. Not like during the early days when I could easily hear him kicking and batting his toys. When I show or offer toys to him, his eyes would most of the times be glued to our faces. Even the funny thing is, every time when I pass by him, his head would turn to see me or to find where my voice coming from. Sometimes I feel guilty that when I’m concentrate in doing something and suddenly when I catch a glimpse of him, I see that all those while; apparently he was looking at me non-stopped. Also as usual, he loves to be held. He couldn’t really stay lying alone in a very long time. Because of that, I always forget to spend some tummy time for him. He managed to lift his head up to 45 degree but he does that very rarely. But when put on the chest, he would do it more. Obviously he needs more practise. Because by the end of the third month he should be able to hold head steadily and roll over. But I’m not worried though since I know each baby develop in their own pace.
Not only being his living ‘canteen’ and recently ‘toy’, I’m still his comfy ‘bed’ especially at night. He just loves to sleep on me. Especially nowadays when the weather is becoming colder from day to day. The heat from my body definitely could guaranty him to sleep more comfortably. But I don’t really encourage and let him spoilt with this habit most importantly because he is getting heavier. I get backache more often these days because of his habit. So only when needed, I let him sleep on me. And usually he sleeps more soundly and happily of course. I noticed that Ihsan loves to sleep with his face facing close to our skin. Sometimes it’s worrying to see his face covered and I need to once in a while keep checking on him. So, that also means less quality sleep for me 😛 It is difficult to put him down to sleep without the right techniques. Usually for doing that, I need to also sleep with him first. So usually during day time like this, he sleeps on my lap; like right now 😀 And that gives me leg cramps more often these days too. He is not easily awakened when he sleeps on me. But that also means only a few chores I could do when I’m stuck with him. On some common things, he manages to open and shuts hands, push down with legs when put on surface, kick legs when put on back, bring both hands together, blows bubble! 😛 and etc.
These days I’m busy collecting study materials for him. Everyday I sing ABC and Alif Baa Taa songs for him besides Itsy Bitsy Spider and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. Well… that are only the songs I know at the moment 😛 Since his brain is functioning like a sponge and at its peak to absorb, I wish to take this chance to expose him to knowledge. Actually I’m planning to introduce Alif Baa Taa, short Surahs, short daily Doas and etc to him but at the moment my source is limited so at the moment I only manage to get some from the internet and TV besides reciting them myself for him. I’ve yet to collect enough material for my mission. Most probably I need to get somebody to get them for me from Mesia. Besides I also plan to do some scrapbooks for him to learn. Although most of the times I see that my baby seems lost in his own world and I am the one who busy enjoying the game, video, song or the story but I think those are good exposure for him. Well… of course I’m not gonna teach him like a teacher giving a lesson to a student. I’m not that irrational and impractical 😛 I know he is still a baby and I definitely don’t expect him to recite ABC right back at me. But my point is instead of I pointlessly or nonsensely babbling or playing with him. I could make my time with him more beneficial and fun. So that he could play and eventually learn at the same time. It’s not about wanting him to be able to read or count fast so that he could get into TV or newspaper and be proud of it 😛 I don’t mind though since I know eventually he will know how to read and count too the latest is once when he enters school. But my main objectives are for my baby to be able to recite Al-Quran as soon as possible and on-goingly stimulating his mind by enjoying whatever knowledge available around him. Furthermore, this can help him to learn better someday if something is already a common thing to him.
I can’t believe it that it has been already 2 months we are running our lives with him. Well, truly I couldn’t even believe it that there he is right in front of me already. I would always wonder did I really give birth to him and now have him whom I can touch. Honestly, I still couldn’t even believe it that I really got pregnant for 2 consecutive years and went into labor already twice! I know that people give birth everyday but going into labor is such although an incredibly amazing, yet it is a very painful experience at the same time (to me). I couldn’t believe it I already have 2 sons. I couldn’t believe it that I even had my first son long gone before me. I couldn’t believe it I had come to this far. I still feel bizarre and it makes me feels like in a dream. Everything is so surreal to me. Still, as time goes by, I’m now more adapted to our new lives. I don’t really feel panic every time when my baby cries his lung out. I could be more cool nowadays and take my sweet time to settle whatever I’m doing and think properly before attending to him. Since he already reached 2 months, we planned to take him out for an outing. He needs to see the world (and me too! :P). Furthermore we need to get some new winter clothes for him.
I was actually trying to capture picture of his taik idong 😛
He was cranky and crying at that time. I unintentionally put the bonnet that way. But he suddenly became quite and when I raised the bonnet up, he already fell asleep. It was hillarious. So we pulled the bonnet back down and took this picture 😛
He loves to sleep with face covered like this.
He was making faces and I managed to capture this 😀
Just woke up during the cold morning.
I put him under the kotatsu but he lasted only a while. He wanted to be held while sleeping 😛
Cute, isn’t he? 😉
His smile makes me melts! 🙂
The latest picture of him which I took this morning. It was cold thus he was seemed unsettled to really fall asleep. So I covered him that way and suddenly he dozed off! 😀
But of course I didn’t simply let him sleep that way. I fixed the layers of blanket and let his face free for clear airways 😉
It is truly a bless having a baby which of course comes with more big responsibilities and not forgetting tiring too 😛 Looking at my baby always makes me think how bad I had been to my mom all these years. Thus this makes me appreciates my mom more. Owh I miss my mom and my dad too of course and also my brothers. Nak balik! Huwaaa! 🙁 Well… I love my baby ever so unconditionally. Especially after what I had to go through before I been blessed with him. I wish to be a better person in order especially to be a good mom. I have high hopes towards him but in order to achieve that, I have to first change and be that way. I want Ihsan to be proud having me as his mom. At least if can’t be the role model myself, I could be his inspiration or greatest backbone who will always motivate him and give him support; perhaps 🙂