Well, yesterday I made foolish live drama of myself okay. Bie ordered speaker’s stands and the electric shop would send them by yesterday’s evening between 4.00 p.m to 6.00 p.m. Actually, they called earlier and Bie told them to come between 5.00 p.m to 6.00 p.m after he finished working. So to make the story short, they happened to come about 15 minutes before 5.00 p.m and so I have to take and pay to them. It was showed on the bill that I have to pay 15038 Yen, so I handed him 20000 Yen. Then if I’m not mistaken he asked me for might be some smaller Yens to pay for the 38 Yen part. Then the BLUR ME slumberly said no need to pay larrr for the 38 Yen because I was thinking like he was the one who supposed to give me the 38 Yen instead of me paying to him. What was I thinking?!!! I didn’t know that myself but all in all at last I managed to pay it and only realized about the SILLY act I made after Bie came back. I told him the whole story then he also confused of me by saying like what the heck happened to you?~~~ That was the time when I realized it. I was already annoyed earlier for being have to get into between-chicken-and-duck like conversation and so, hell of it I didn’t understand anything! All I could do was assuming and guessing. What a mental torched okay! Then I felt more like shit when I realized about the silliness of me and even worse when to think back what would the man thought of me. Okay even I do realize my mistake but how I could tell him by words anyway? So, the whole good mood was killed last night. I ended up calling my friends after that and feeling bit better though.
Duh~~~ when it comes to these kinds of things I will feel like ouhhh I have already lost my mind for letting myself stuck in this whole sucks life! I am rotting here, please safe me arghhh!!! Once in a month, it will be normal for me to have a rest after a month of being pretending to be cool, slumber, strong, relax and patient towards my everyday life. So, once in a month the tank will be loaded and burst and so, just like yesterday since I couldn’t bear them anymore. Actually, I do want to look my life with a positive perspective, but after all I am a human from other side of the world so there were sometimes so many uncommon things that tend to irritate me. So, I do feel tired and boring sometimes okay. Especially when the should be harmless teensy-weensy little thing also could turn into troublesome huge matter, that are what sicken me the most! Ouhhh I am a duck and I do quack!, and I hate chickens for their cuckoos!!!
Seriously I need a motivation and inspiration here. May be I should read more about positive mind thinking, laughter as best medicine =D, ignorance as best life principle =D, how to have a stoned-heart and being heartless =D =D =D and so on and so forth muahaha!
Okay enough about that. After awhile I’m thinking of changing my blog’s skin since now it is too perfectly arranged, schematic, neat and so on. So, I want to lessen those qualities hohoho. Well, will work on it after if I found a suitable skin and not lazy to make the changes though. Hmmm-hmmm okay ciao!
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